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January
28, 2004
The discussions continue about what to do for our
anniversary. i think He's got His own ideas -
although i did suggest having dinner out the night before,
which tends to be a bit less hectic for me getting home
from work. He said; "We'll see."
Which translates into He hasn't made up His mind or come
up with something that He thinks is just right - but that
He intends to be the one to decide. Hey, that's okay with
me! :-)
Things are getting hectic with His schedule again, and
that hasn't been helping our D/s moments at all.
Usually we are hectic at the same time - but my life seems
to be sorting itself out into a bit of a routine. So
tonight i leaned in close to Him and while nuzzling His
neck (He has a very nuzzable neck!) i whispered that we
needed to come up with something that would not be overly
time consuming, but would keep us focused while He's
caught up in this busy time. He nodded in agreement.
After dinner, we were sitting talking, and that's when the
topic of the anniversary came up. Along with that i
mentioned that i'd been thinking a lot lately about the
lifestyle in general - about our fit in it as well, and
how it's evolved, and how it will be when we are old.
i said that for me, what i miss the most when we get busy
like this, is the discipline. And by that i don't
mean the rituals - serving two handed, lighting candles at
dinner - or the small expectations such as the tender bits
being always shaved and impeccable manners at all
times. This is all done without so much as a
pause. And He's all dom all the time - i can't
imagine what He was like as a child - but His brothers
have told me a thing or two!
What i mean is i miss the discipline of Him telling me
from time to time, exactly how things will be.
And of course the first example that always comes to my
mind is the time i was going to visit a friend and i was
told directly that i wasn't to get drunk - and of course
she and i had a grand old time gossiping and drinking a
wee bit too much wine. Man, did i get into
trouble! It's amazing how disrespectful you can get
with wine in your belly!
It's hard to explain all this sometimes. To the rest
of the world, it would seem abusive to hear Him say;
"I want you to... I expect you to..." And
yet for me that is a natural and much wanted state.
It's how i thrive best.
So while i miss playtime when we are too busy, i miss
discipline more. i think that's the one
element that is the most important to both of us, and how
we function as a couple. And based on our dynamics
as a couple, i believe it's important that we not lose
sight of that element.
Heh. Enough speculation for one night. He's
already naked under the blankets
.....
 
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