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March
13, 2004
i guess i really did run out of words. i've been
exploring art a lot more though, and fell into a passable
book, so not all was wasted time. And Himself and i
have settled into this lovely companionable-ness that
involves lots of hugs and great food - and not a whole lot
of Ds. So while i believe the first part of that
sentence is absolutely perfect and right for us and i
wouldn't have it any other way - when maintaining a
submissive journal, i get hung up on the idea that i'm
supposed to record what we are doing in that arena.
Forgetting of course that all the best bits need to be
recorded to.
Takes me a bit to remember that - heh. And then i
do. And then i'm back here. :-)
Proof that i'm still alive ----> 
One of these days i might even get brave and take the robe
off. i sometimes wonder why i'm prudish about my own
body, yet have absolutely no trouble seeing anyone else
naked. In fact, when they show shyness, i am often
the first one to quote "hey, it's only
parts!"
Painting has been fun lately. Last month (27th) the
instructor had an open house and let everyone show up with
their family to see our work. THAT was very
bizarre. And what was even more bizarre was having
people make comments and express pleasure in seeing what
i've done.
This was the one that they seemed to like best, even
though she's not done yet: 
i think it was a big confidence booster though. i'm
such a needy approval hound, that people liking my stuff
helped to validate 'me'. i wonder if that's part of
the submissive nature - the need for reassurance. Or
just a leftover from the days when i was told i wasn't any
good.
Last weekend's efforts weren't quite so successful
*s*. i started out trying to paint a window,
discovered things weren't going well ... so opted for an
abstract (in hopes of rescuing the paint.) Even my
son thinks this one is too wierd.
He did however like the pear - says it reminds him of a
bum. Heh.
Ok i'm gone. Busy day today - and we get to go visit
a friend and have dinner out! Yay!
 
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