April 24,  2004

       Sometimes it's a real toss of the coin as to whether i will write here, or just go straight to practicing art.  And more often than not lately, i haven't felt like there's much to say.  Our life just seems to be bouncing along in a very pleasant manner, with not a lot of the emotional upheaval we first experienced when i moved in.  And while i miss the passionate honeymoon phase that all relationships go through, i have to admit the honey-mellow ambiance of today feels very rich to me.

      i'll admit to getting restless though.  i think what it is that i miss are those gut-wrenching, dragging the emotions right out of me moments, when His will (with the aid of a few floggers and canes) would knock the defiant insecurities, and willfullness, and out of control oh-my-gawd-i-refuse-to-let-anyone-in emotions, right out of me.  Whew.  That was a mouthful.  However, i think He senses when i get antsy - that's usually when i get a chore.  Blech.

      It's not like i don't know that He's still "da Boss". i do.  Very much.  It was just a lot more fun when He'd play Tarzan to my jane, a little more often.  Now there's a role i'd have loved!  'Course being built like jane would have been cool too.

      Now i just paint naked butts.

      But what a butt!  i did my two-hour Saturday afternoon challenge this week, one of which was to pick a body part and focus on getting it just right.  i am really chuffed with this one .. there are some corrections that i think it still needs, but all in all, i think i really 'said' what i wanted to say in this one. (The camera did not capture the colours really well .. boo!)

      This type of painting (the body) is starting to feel like where i need to go with art.  i have to admit that landscapes just don't do a whole lot for me.  In fact, i'm discovering i don't have a whole lot of patience for them - however i do believe i still need to learn about them - especially for understanding lights and darks and tones.  And learning how to capture the light in a painting - i think that's what is missing in the butt painting.  

      Himself has decided that there is something that appeals to Him in my feeble attempts with the palette knife.  i haven't a clue what He sees in these things - every time i do a piece that i TOTALLY don't understand, that's the one He ends up liking.  (Although i think He kind of likes the butt one.)  To me, the palette knife one is just kind of surreal - more like something in Alice in Wonderland.  Heh.  Maybe it's a flash back to His big afro and "party-on-dude" days.  *eg*

       Okay - off to some self-inflicted abuse of helping Him clean up the winter-ravaged backyard ... in the wind and rain.  

PS - two more new journals in the Bloodstone ring.  Woohoo!

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