December 14, 2001

      i think i'm starting to recover from the corporate Christmas party environment.  i think.

      i spent the best part of the day with a screaming headache and icky stomach. Yes, too much alcohol and rich foods.  But it was all so good!

     We were met at the entrance to the party by "hansel and gretal" and then as we walked into the ballroom, waiters appeared bearing trays laden with tall glasses of cranberry coloured champagne.  With the cranberries gently floating within.  Other waiters offered trays of hors d'oeuvres - things like little bits of smoked salmon on tiny wafers.  Four different areas were set up with street names, and under each lighted street sign were long buffet tables.  Any type of food you could hope to have was provided.  i headed straight for the sushi table!

     All the alcohol was gratis, and they also had an oxygen bar, which was something i'd never seen before and still seems a bit 'new age' to me.  Nothing they said could convince me to try it.  They also had magicians and tarot card readers, and two caricaturists.  i had a reading done and made a wish with the magician - lots of silliness but fun nonetheless.  i'm always amazed at how accurate the cards can be sometimes.  But then i get a bit jaded since i'm sure we hear what we need to hear from a reading.

     In the center of the room was a very grand looking ice sculpture and a chocolate fountain.  Too decadent.  People were lined up for a chance to dip fresh fruit into the steady flow of it.  i refrained, preferring instead to stay back and chat with people, but better than that, just watch everyone as they interacted.  i always like that the best.  i particularly get a chuckle when i see the young, seemingly available vp's get swarmed by lovely young women.  And i like watching all the politics happening - the schmoozing because of position type thing.  Guess i'm not a corporate ladder climber - since i don't think i could schmooze with someone just 'cause i'm trying to get into their good books.  Like me for who i am and want to know me.  Not because you think you should.

     i did have a moment of feeling a bit down though, as i watched all the younger people.  There's a different fire in them - motivation - that i know i don't have anymore.  They still have that youthful exuberance that comes with thinking that time goes on forever - and the world is their oyster just waiting to be opened.  There's parts of that, that i wish i could have again, but also parts that i wouldn't want to go back to.  

     Maybe it's the corporate environment, but it seems like they have a brittleness that i've never had.  Like they really are in the dog - eat - dog world and they are going to get to the top no matter what.   Definitely not for me.  While they were busy introducing themselves and justifiably boasting proudly of their high end positions,  i was happily stating i'm the one who has the real power - i am the keeper of the supply cupboard key.  No Prozac for me!

     i did stay out a bit later than anticipated however, and worried the big guy.  Which i've felt guilty about today.  That certainly wasn't my intent.  i did finally decide it was time to go home though when a certain person thought i might be fun for the night.  He'd asked me to dance and (blame the wine) i showed him i could dance as well as he could (dirty dancing).  Apparently this was appealing 'cause next thing i know i'm being kissed!  

     Alrighty then.  Taxi!

     This morning i'm relating all this to Himself as i'm trying to put myself together enough to function at the workshop i've been participating in.  Putting myself together was not easy, especially since the headache was already starting to kick in.  

     As i was about to dash out the door, He came down the stairs and grabbed my wrist, then quickly wound the day cuffs around my left wrist.  Then He placed His hand around my throat, gave me a deep kiss and sent me off, now floating even more.

     Perfect.  

                

      PS:  i'v been invited to join another webring. So i did, but i can't seem to find a list to show me who else is on it.  Actually, it looks like only i am - so i'll have to investigate further. Hence the reason for the new link below.

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