February 5, 2002

      It's officially three months today.

      Three months of totally life altering reality that has now culminated in my being eligible for the "match dollar to dollar" rrsp contributions and GASP! Medical benefits.  

      Yes!  Onward i go to the dentist and the doctor and the optometrist.  All people who will successfully make me even more aware of how short the next five years will be, and make me feel hugely old.  Or is that old hugely.  Heh.  Ask my hips.

      But seriously.  Besides the fact that i'm officially "in" with the company and received my business cards (imagine that!) i'm still focused on the fact that i am indeed going to continue to age with the best of them and i'd better be saving a lot of money in those rrsp's.  (Canadian type retirement stuff)

     Which brings me to something that touched me very much.  Himself reads a journal about a woman with children, in a relationship and all the rest of life's little bumps and grinds.  Yesterday He sent me a link to one of her entries.  This entry explained better than i ever could have exactly how i feel about being in my forties.  And how i feel about aging in general.  It was good to read someone else's thoughts and realize that i'm not alone.  

      http://www.3harpiesltd.com/lfeb/

      It's worth reading.

      We continue on our quest for integrating more of the 'physical' of D/s at home stuff.  And i think it's having a very positive effect on both of us emotionally.  Himself is taking the time to 'task' me - nothing dramatic, yet effective.  

      Like tonight.  i came home to find a note that told me to finish off the dinner and have the music playing and the wine poured by the time He came in.  Perfect.  i was surprised, delighted ... and best of all happily obedient.  He took the time out of His own busy day to acknowledge that this is what i need, and i have the satisfaction of feeling really helpful and useful - and needed by Him.

      And it's going to be 2 years since He collared me, next week.  We've been together longer, but officially collared for that amount of time.  i'm trying to think of something special we can do (besides the romantic dinner stuff), but nothing is coming to me yet.  i'll think of something!

      my daughter came to visit this week.  Right now she's off with her brother, but it was a great surprise.  We are getting a chance to catch up with each other before she starts school (which will lessen her available travel time.)

      And! i think her vegetarian stage is officially over.  i don't think she's quite ready to tackle pork or steak yet, but hot dogs and ham and bits of chicken are definitely back on the menu.  Yeah!  i honestly don't mind vegetarianism at all - if it's done properly.  But my daughter's way - all you can eat McDonald's french fries - was definitely not the way to go.  At least now i have a sense of her eating a few good things that might contribute to some sort of nutrition.

      Our conversation last night about her visit to the grocery store and the fact that she's buying real fruit and vegetables now was pretty funny.  It's great how they turn into adults eh!

      More later.. lots of deeper thoughts in my brain these days.. and an urge to start 'creating' again.  

      If i could only find the time ....

                

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