April 27,  2003

     i haven't been back to sketching since last week.  This week was so BUSY!  And i'm still in my slump, although i think the sunshine is starting to help a bit.  Plus, Wednesday i had class, and both Thursday and Friday evening attended plays - so there's been lots of diversions.

     Absolutely nothing's happening  in the physical manifestations department of our D/s except for the day cuff put on me every night.  (day cuff + night - is that an oxymoron?)  Emotionally we are very there - and we couldn't be snuggling more - but neither of us has had the time to even think about more formal rituals.  i sometimes wonder if all of this just dies a natural death over time - if that's how it is with all couples.  i used to get anxious during these little "dry" spells - now it just seems natural and since our relationship is going along so well - maybe isn't as important. 

     Except that this journal was originally created to express my thoughts about D/s.  So if only the emotional aspects are happening, then all that is left to talk about is the regular day stuff and how interesting is that?  Do i really need to record the fact that the cat barfed on the spare chair in the office this week?  Blech.

     Hmm.  And i fell off the carb wagon weeks ago - and now find myself eating non stop.  Which has not helped in the clothes department at all.  And eating all the wrong things as well - cookies and potato chips and chocolate bars abound.  Yum! Sigh.

     This SARS thing worries me.  Not so much for myself, but for my son and his girlfriend and the buddy that lives with them, and Himself's daughter.  Especially the buddy as he's not the healthiest thing on the block to begin with.  i think a lot of people are overreacting however - given the numbers, the risk is still about the same as getting hit by lightening.  Most of the people i know are just practicing careful hygiene, which is something we should do anyway - and avoiding doctor and hospital visits if possible.  Yet the possibility of infection is still present - and it is the first time i wished the kids weren't living in the city.  And the West Nile Virus fear is just around the corner.  Sheesh. 

     People are generally carrying on with life as usual.  The Canadian Diabetes Society will be by on Monday to pick up donated clothing - so obviously they aren't worried about visiting stranger's houses.  And i've only personally seen one person wearing a face mask - and that was weeks ago.  Even Himself has gone for dim sum in China Town - even though it's like a ghost town over there these days. (check out the pic of the steamed chicken feet -retch!)

     Financially it's been a tough week.  Not only did i pay off the seat belt fine (grumble) but Himself got hit with a $1,500.00 bill for the car.  New sticker, emissions testing, tire rod and all that other mechanical man talk stuff that i don't want to think about.  Ouch.  And now we think the fuel pump might be going - or at least that's the opinion of the CAA tow-truck driver who rescued Himself from the side of the road yesterday.  

     Having said all that - i DO think this is the week that my pay raise shows up!  Yay!  And in spite of the fact that we both get tax rebates this year, that will now be paying off a car bill, Himself is letting me have a bit of it to get myself a treat!  Hmm... maybe it should be something pervy.

     i just reread all of this - obviously i'm up and down and all over the mat in my thoughts.  Weirdness.

     i'm gone.          

PS - i really like the side bar stuff today :-)