November 6,  2003

      Lazy day today.  In fact it's 1:30 in the afternoon and i'm still not dressed.  Ahhhh vacations!  i'll have to get my act together soon however - tonight is my first oil painting class.  So i've dragged myself away from the bed and my book, and will concentrate on finding something to wear that i won't care gets paint on it.  

      i'll admit i'm nervous about this class.  There are 4 people in various stages of skill levels attending, and then there will be myself and one other person as beginners.  At least i'll have someone to share that with.  my fear of course, is not being "good enough" - which is usually my fear about everything and drives Himself crazy.  (Although i think even He'd have to admit He's got a touch of the perfectionist bug in Him as well!)  

(Much later)

      So i spent the entire afternoon trying to find all the journal entries from when i first started writing, and copying them to a word document.  i'm not even close to finished, and it's been an emotional roller coaster of highs and lows as i read some of my past thoughts.  my fear is that i will lose those words however, as they are living in a tripod site that i can no longer access, despite my best efforts to convince the tripod people that i'm really the writer.  They don't believe me, so won't give me the old password, and i don't have the old email address to verify anything. *grumble*  And lord only knows when they will take things down.  

      i had no idea i had written so much!

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