December 8,  2003

        Yee Haw!  i got a bonus at work.  That is definitely something i am not used to.  All my previous places of employment would give me a nice little gift of some sort and that was that.  Which i always thought of as very sweet thing and always appreciated.  So i'm not used to being handled a rather substantial sum of money.  i'd love to take it all out and spend it too!   But if i do that i will lose nearly half of the amount to taxes.. soooooooo  into a company RSP it goes.  Which will help me come income tax reporting time.  *sigh*  It's such a grown up thing to do.

      i'm getting into the holiday spirit a bit.  Hence the annoying snowflakes.  But i'm just in the right mood for "annoying".  Heh.  Turns out however, that Himself and i are alone on Christmas eve and morning, which is a total bummer.  It's never the same without kids around.  And there's no way i'll be able to convince Him to have a romantic gift opening in bed thing Christmas morning.  This is so not how i had hoped the holidays would be, but my kids will be with their father this year - in spite of the fact that we'd talked about this most of the year, and how i'd wanted my daughter here for a change.  As a compromise, their father has offered to drive them back here for dinner Christmas day, but it's still not the same.  The tradition has always been the kids and i on Christmas Eve.  And it's hard not to say anything, but if i do, then i end up coming across as the whining bad guy, and it all gets off on the wrong foot.  

      Darn.

      So it looks like this week is going to be just like the last one - Himself and i barely seeing each other.  According to the calendar so far, it's Wednesday before we have a meal together.  Lord only knows when we'll get a chance to try out the funky new flogger He just got.  Which might not be all bad, since i took one look at it and commented that this puppy is going to sting!  

      Hmmm.  Maybe there's hope for Christmas Eve after all.